This blog is my attempt to document our busy but BLESSED lives raising and educating our children for His glory. A child of God, wife to one, and mom to 6 fabulous kids. We are in our 15th year of homeschooling using a Classical ~ Literature based approach.

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Sunday, January 3, 2010

Forever in my heart

I knew it was coming, I sensed it...and so did he. G was being moved... Again. The fourth time in the 24 months that I had him in my care. My heart was broken...shattered. WHY, I called out to God, WHY!?!
I was his "stable beginning", my daycare was the place that he knew he was loved unconditionally.
Hasn't he been through enough?
How much can one child take until they are... broken.
I scrambled to reach my deployed husband by email who was 18+ hours ahead of me. Please, let us save G from having to move again. Let him be ours, FOREVER. We can be the family that he yearns for.
But it was too late.
Time ran out for us...
and I had to let him go. See him walk out my front door that Friday evening to never return again. That was a hard weekend for me in late March 2009. I didn't even write my husband his daily email until late Sunday night, because I was shattered into tiny little pieces. Oh, I was touched by G in words that I can't even begin to put on paper. That little boy taught me so much and yet I was the one that was to be doing the teaching.
My prayers for 2010 are that he is safe, happy and most of all...


  1. Even though I don't know the whole story of G, I'll be praying for him and that God puts him just where he needs to be, with loving people! And that He heals your heart quickly. :) Hugs!

  2. I know it can break your heart but just realize that you did something special for him while he was in your care. I had something similar happen in my preschool classroom shortly before Christmas. This 3 yr boy taken from mom for neglect, given to dad who wasn't really be loved by his stepmom. He was beginning to blossom in our classroom and then didn't show up for a week. Stepmom calls to say she's gettin divorced, he's being pulled out of our classroom and she doesn't know what dad will do with him. How does a 3yo deal with 2 moms leaving him and the stable people in his life just being gone? I'll say a prayer for little G. Will you say one for J?

  3. I sure will! I know I made a difference in his life. God and time will heal.

  4. Bless his heart! What a blessing that he had you as long as he did.

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